On A Second Note.

I would just like to add to my last story a little by letting you know that later that night, the construction worker's dog ran away, and we broke up.

Still Single.

I have had a lot of thinking time today and it really bit the big one. Today I woke up at 0445 and left for work at 0525. I wasnt sure how long it would take to get to Delta, but I was an hour and a bit early... So that gave me a whole lot of time to sit and do nothing. I opened by glove compartment to find one of my journals.. so I wrote all morning. Then after a long morning of work, I wrote all lunch break. I have never written in my Journal so much in such a short span of time (I should add in that last night I wrote for over an hour in my journal too). Who the heck has that much to say to themselves?!? I guess I just have all this alone time at work where all I hear is what I am thinking because the outside noises are muffled by ear plugs (Pink and Yellow ones).

Im sure that its not a bad thing to be thinking, but when I think, I get sad. Its not that a ton of bad things have happened to me that I need to complain about, its just that I get to thinking about where I am at in life and im unsure about myself. I have this overwhelming desire to get out and be a real adult, ya know? But then I dont want to screw it up and waste years of my life. One thing that I want so bad, and God willing, its gonna happen... is that I would be working full time in Camp ministry. I would be quite content with that job - really! But I just cant see myself doing that alone. Its silly, I know, cuz I am still pretty young. But dang. I dont know many guys who are willing to give up their lives to serve in camp ministry. Its a special calling.

I dont want to dwell on the fact that I am alone.. and in no way am I trying to offend anyone by sayign this, but I am struggling a lot with the fact that my friends are all starting to date eachother. I dont quite know how to take it all - seeing as its happening so fast. I keep telling myself, "Kara, you are 18 years old... you've got lots of time to meet someone"... and I do. And I would like to say, for the record, if single is what God is calling me to be, then I will do it because God is good and He knows whats going on WAY more than I do.

To end this on a louder note... I am no longer arriving in Hilo, Hawaii in June from sailing; but instead, I will be going to MAUI! Apparently there are better beaches there. But what do I know? Ive never been farther than Washington! IM STOKED!

May your day be filled with Sunshine tomorrow (While I am taking a MIDTERM all day!)